Looking after my Kenny since he got his heart surgery has been really hard. He had to get the heart surgery to give him another ten or so years of life, but I think it may have actually taken years off his life.
One of the terrible potential side effects of heart surgery is that it can cause the heart to pump too much blood around the body and cause a stroke. Well, about one month after his surgery he did have a stroke. I don’t know how I didn’t notice it straight away. Slowly after the stroke, he started getting angrier and angrier at me. Ken has always been the nicest, most quiet person I’ve ever met. He wouldn’t hurt a fly, so when he raised his voice at me in frustration after not remembering the name of our favourite television show, I knew something was wrong.
Maybe if I had noticed the signs sooner then he would have gotten better quicker. He’s been in hospital since he raised his voice at me. I called an ambulance because I didn’t know what to do and he’s been there ever since whilst he rehabilitates from his stroke. I’ve never lived alone before. I miss him. I find myself just staring at his bathtub cut out. For elderly people in the Sydney area with mobility problems like Ken, it’s a good idea to get rid of all types of trip hazards. I did exactly that after his heart surgery. I even added lots of rails throughout the house for him. And now he’s not even here. At the time, the bathtub remodel cost was high. But now I’d pay anything just to have him back with me.
I don’t know what I would do if he didn’t come back from the hospital. He is the love of my life and the person that I depend on more than anyone else. I always said if he died before me then I’d kill him… so hopefully that doesn’t happen.